The only ones who know my secret are my sister & my best friend, and of course my special friends ;)
I guess you could say I have a split personality because, most of the time, I like my job, I love the freedom, the excitement & yup uh huh..the MONEY!! Then there are days, when I am like, you really need to get it together and leave this business and start putting your energy into something else that makes me feel good, something I can be open about, not secretive about!!! Right now, my family is constantly asking me "what the hell do you do all day??" Why aren't you working..( I have 3 college diplomas) .....that question makes me feel like shit, cause I really would like to make my family proud of me again, and NO this would not do it for them!!!
I have always been rather open, sexually..however, I must admit due to the stigma that comes along with exposing your secret life...I will never be open about it.
1st reason, I am a mother, and I have a daughter ( whom I NEVER EVER want her to do this)
2nd reason, this is something I have chosen to do when I feel to do it, it is not something I am interested in making a full blown career out of , I still want to pursue other options....I plan to continue on pursuing a 9-5 business career, I like that type of work, and because I really do want a pension & I want to have benefits) (FED GOV) , so I will NEVER expose myself...my worst fear is to be interviewed or start a job...and someone there knows me....
As we know, there are plenty of lurkers out there, this is why I would never show my face in my pics .....people are cruel....I would hate to know my face pic would be floating around out there somewhere or even worse someone showing it to my daughter.....As a mother, I must do what I need to do sometimes, however, I think it is IMPERATIVE that I be ULTRA DISCREET for the well being of my child.
I am worried about, the judgement, harshness & disrespect that comes with exposing yourself or even worse being exposed by some one else is something I never want to experience. This is biggest secret I have had to keep!!!