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My main so called "dirty secret" is being a paid companion. I have more but this is one that I wish wasn't a secret. My Mom, one sister and now 2 personal friends know. I just wish I didn't have to hide it, I'm proud of what I do, love what I do and have met some of the most amazing people I wouldn't have, if I was still sitting behind that desk. I want to show my face in my pictures and all of me inside and out. May be in due time I will just say screw it and not give a $hit about what my church, family and people will say. I think it has more to do with my sons and protecting them from how cruel other children and parents can be. I don't want my choices to cause them any drama.

Work day is over, tomorrow morning hit the road to Toronto, for my first sleepover encounter Been in the planning stages for a long time RG

I myself have been going to Negril Jamaica for the last 14 years. I just returned the weekend before last and spent part of my vacation at Hedo. Just to let 6eslive know there is no Hedo in Runaway Bay it's now a Breezes. Hedo: Let's just say it's "Disney Land" for adults. People of all shapes and sizes and ages go there. It is what you make of it and there is no shortage of sex. The resort is what I would say *** You will never run out of things to do or friendly people to meet. If you like to see women in heels it's quite a show. The theme nights are a "blast" anything goes the bolder the better, from painted nipples to men with nothing but a sock on their dick. The entertainment is spectacular it's always sexy and provocative."Winston" is a gem he's a trained opera singer he does a number where he dress's up as a drag queen let's just say the 1st time I saw him last year I had a girl crush on him. Then there's the piano bar "Deon" is quite a show man this man can look at you think of a song change the words and have everyone in stiches. It's always a fun time especially when he picks 2 people who don't know eachother and gets them to come up and dance on the piano but you have to be careful as most men walk off with a "boner". One of my favorite's is when he does the YMCA 1 guy and 3 ladies and none of the ladies have any "panties" on. Need I say more! Just when you think your done for the evening the disco gets rollin.. now there is some DIRTY DANCIN going on there, the lingerie nights are something else. Now I'm a lady so I won't go into detail. And when you've danced sooo much and you just want to peel your cloths off you can go for a swim in one of the pools or you can head to the hot tub. You'd be surprized what can happen, it's always entertaining. Some nights are better than other but it's always a fun time. The food is great. No shortage of anything your little heart desires. They have everything from local indigenous cuisine to Prime Rib. I myself had Jerk chicken and fries everyday it's so good but so bad. There is no shortage of liquor if they don't have something they'll get it. One night I had a sore throat and I asked for a Brandy they didn't have any the next night the bartender saw me and said they had it so I decided it was a Brandy night. They even have a Martini Bar on Friday's. As for you thinking of bringing an SP with you I would be game besides I know Negril like the back of my hand. LOL But there's really no need as there is never a shortage of willing horny ladies. But you could always invite 2 ladies with you as the 2nd lady's accommodation's would be 1/2 price. If you want to know more about Hedo please feel free to ask, or you can always go to their web sight and check out the current events or if there are any porn stars visiting... and theme nights as well. The Wild Women week seems to bring in alot of people. Then there's always the day pass men pay $100 and the lady pays nothing. I'm sure you would have a fun time. Cheers!

Nope, not at all. I think we all have different desires or needs depending on our moods, how stressful our day has been, how playful we are feeling. I have had some pretty intense, "hot monkey sexin'" PSE style sessions with a lady and then on our next encounter have had a slow passionate time together. I think it is how you relate to the person you are with, and what your mutual desires are at that particular moment that influences how you behave together. I love sex to be adventurous and vigorous and push the boundaries, but I also like it to be tender, passionate and comfortable. It depends on what experience the two of you want to share on the day, that determines how things play out.

Sara, I agree with your comments, but I also understand Dunn's remarks. He was curious about this lifestyle and found the temptation of cerb to be somewhat overpowering. Cerb itself is fine, but at that point in his life and marriage, he gave in to the temptation which he now regrets. Been there, done that.

Oh I LOVE having a man cook for me. There's very few things that turn me on more than a man who knows his way around a kitchen. But I know what I'm doing in there, so if you can't keep up, I'll just show you the chair and give you some wine to sip while you watch lol I have to say though, If you can teach me a thing or two, I'm a happy and willing student....:icon_wink:

Hows about......" What has 140 teeth and holds back the Incredible Hulk .....Lee's zipper" ;) I hope my marketing courses start soon ! ....Perhaps will help with my opening lines ! I have been Indy now for a couple months and I can count on zero fingers how much business I have had :(

Young stud, washboard abs, length and girth to make a horse jealous. He's not here but I am. Posted from my iPhone

Well I have tried this once....I think it is gonna work but will let you know in about 3 weeks Sophia ;)

The big one: I was raped when I was almost 14 by 2 local boys. Due to where it was it, was somewhat obvious as I had to make my way back to the golf club. Needless to say justice was out of my hands as the military takes care of it's own and has the dont ask dont tell. But to this day all I know is neither can have children. And I'm so pedestrian I have to think hard... -barefoot usually, no underwear except for work :) -I am not outted nor do I want to be. It would hurt too many people I love. -I love being naked outside. -I was arrested once. -I got caught with a friend stuffed in a barracks locker in CFB Borden while visiting our bf's. -I always make myself cum before I go to sleep, or I cant sleep. -I've had sex with way too many musicians. -you cross me or mine and you pay dearly.

I think it's time we all,in this business,stop worrying about what others will think about our decisions.I to am like lexy and hide what I do from most,but I am coming to the conclusion that those who love us,truly love us, will not judge us by what we do ,but by how we love them,treat them,and respect them and ourselves.I think this is the only way to bring to light that this profession includes stable,respectful,educated,NORMAL,well rounded people,who by their choice choose to work in a "controversial "field,and by doing so are not "affected",just because we are more open sexually.After all shouldn't people be judged by their character not their occupation,even better why judge at all!!

The knock on the door can easily be avoided by sending a simple text message to the lady before entering the building...

Nice thoughts Sophia. I am not so sure that the attraction is vanity as it is for me eroticism. I have a large mirror at the top of my bed, but unfortunately it is at a height that is not conducive to voyeurism. However, at the foot of the carpeted stairs on the main floor is a ceiling to floor tiled mirror wall. Now that has produced some very erotic moments and great memories. It also caused some laughter when trying to figure out how to make best use of stairs and still maintain a visual dimension. :)

Hey All! Im working TOMORROW 6-11 Come and enjoy a Great sensual massage and Amazzzzzing body slides! Always FUN never rushed you won't be disappointed. Duos, Reverse, Light gfe, showers, hot tub also avail Working This week FRI 6-11 SAT 9-3 PM me to schedule your appt Hugs and Kisses Muah xo - Jordyn My Pics: http://www.cerb.ca/vbulletin/album.php?albumid=4316 My Recommendations: http://www.cerb.ca/vbulletin/showthr...?ltr=J&t=56307 Profile link: http://www.cerb.ca/vbulletin/member.php?u=44874

There's another thread here: http://www.cerb.ca/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=81646

Too lazy to do a big supper...so I just heat up some chef Boyardi (last time I had some was over 3 years ago) stomach start to be upset. empty ALL THE BOWELS! ugh. my stomach:(

Guys, When I visit Saint John or any city I always offer full body massage. I have a diploma in massage and your massage will be tailered just for you and your personal needs! I am even in the process of starting Nuru massage. :)

I have been thinking about the original post now for a few days and wished to make a comment. We all have in our lives made choices that at the time seemed to be the correct choice for us, but then time and experience proved otherwise. One learns from their choices, and one must always accept whatever consequences come from the choices that we make. I read the post in perhaps a different way from that of many of the people who responded. It is of course impossible to know, but I sense a man who made an error personally, who has recognized that he made an error, and simply wishes to caution others who may be in his position to think perhaps a little longer and harder about the choices that they make than he himself did originally. Words can be difficult to interpret at times, but I felt that he was saying that it was HIS participation in the forum that caused his difficulties - not that the community of CERB itself was at fault. It can be very easy to go with the "Grass is greener on the other side," philosophy or sometimes it is too easy to rush into a decision or choice. I for one would appreciate the caution that he extended and perhaps his post has been the little encouragement for some to work harder at their marriage and with their families. Think before you act is wise advice in most scenarios and situations in life and is always valid. I feel very badly for him that the experience has led to the difficulties that apparently he now has to deal with. However as with all experiences, one learns from them and oftentimes in the long term one benefits from our mistakes and misfortunes as difficult as that may be to do. May this be the case for this gentleman and I hope that he and his family will become stronger and more appreciative of each other as a result of waht was for him, a misjudgement.

I am a long time member of this site as well as others and don't tend to post a lot on any of them. I don't believe you have to be online posting to gain a good reputation or respect within the hobbying community. I have some great relations with some wonderful SP's here on CERB as well as other cities, mainly Montreal. Some people don't like to post a lot and give too much info on themselves here or other sites and some don't have the time alone to post a lot. It takes a fair amount of private time just to view these sites let alone post on a regular basis. For those just starting out and are uneasy or unable to post a lot, just contact a lady on here you wish to see either through pm or email. In your message be polite, kind and an overall gentleman. Give some info on yourself, you don't have to give your life history but some info would help. Let the lady know what you are looking for in terms of when where and how long but don't be graphic or vulgar. And most important, show up for your date. Once you have seen one lady and had a good time, you now have a reference you can give to the next one you want to see and believe me the ladies talk and don't mind giving references of men to each other. Treat people the way you want to be treated and you will have no problems having fun in this hobby. Just my two cents.

I like genav88 because she uses some really outrageous words on 3-word-game ;)

I lie to my mother about my income. I am a Reiki Master and I tell her my money comes from my Reiki practice. She is in awe I can do so well at this alternative healing practice. Sometimes I fell a little guilty. You have to do what you must though. Another one. My sister borrows money from me a lot. One day she said hey, "you make more money than a hooker at this Reiki". She doesn't need to know either. :icon_smile::icon_smile::icon_wink:

Yup. In my earlier post in this thread, I almost invoked my second-favourite* quotation: "Rules are for the obedience of fools and the guidance of wise men." You need to know the rules and understand their purpose, but one of the privileges and burdens of being an adult is that you can choose to bend or break them. But the responsibility is on YOU. You need to use your hard-earned wisdom to decide when a situation warrants breaking a rule, and also when and how you go about it. * My MOST favourite quotation is "A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds", because it's along the same lines, PLUS it's got "hobgoblin" in it!

This lifestyle of escorts does not lead to unfulfilled marriages. Unfulfilled marriages lead you to us. From my understanding, this profession has actually saved many marriages from breaking up. We intelligent and caring women provide an invaluable service to men. Lauren

I wear leggings as pants!

Oddly enough, it makes me think of the way gypsies were despised in Europe for the longest time, because they had no land to tie them down -- they just travelled and lived as they could. Being without land or a community fixed in one place was contemptible, and this deviation from the narrow-minded norm implied you were unprincipled, irresponsible, and untrustworthy. If you hadn't bought into the prevailing institutions, you were a threat the Order Of Things. You were shunned and chased out of the area. I think even today, a lot of our prevailing morals have outdated, conservative roots, and come from times when churches held sway, communities were small and struggling, human labour was our primary engine for getting anything done, and Earth Needed People. The relevant old-time attitudes here are: a) making more people is the only legitimate way to spend a life b) marriage is the solemn institution in which you must perform a) c) sex is reserved exclusively for marriage in order to gild that particular cage d) prostitution is a threat to c) as well as b), and must be publicly condemned. So prostitutes, if they were known publicly, got the same treatment as gypsies: condemned, hounded, chased away -- even at the hands of their former clients. After all, we all know how ancient and universal prostitution is; that condemnation I mention in d) is about public display, not private behaviour. But it's a deep-rooted reflex for a lot of people who don't think this stuff through for themselves. Happily we're starting to emerge from that outdated framework. Same-sex marriage is one of the spearheads being driven into the heart of that particular institutionalized view of relationships, and shows the triumph of real-world experience and the tide of public opinion over archaic and fossilized irrational attitudes. I'm optimistic.

It's true that at the end of the day, we all make choices that we have to live with. But let me put something into perspective for some of you. And this might strike a cord with people who have had problems dealing with something they could not control. When the average person goes out for a drink or two, there's no problem, and they can leave the bar. They go back home, live their lives and nothing ever changes. Then there are some people, who will continue to drink, and not stop. It will interfere in their life, and will bring chaos and possible ruin to it. Nobody is going to blame the bartender, but still this guys life is gone south. When the average person goes to the casino, he/she will blow some money, get a thrill and leave. Not to have the urge to come back the next day. It's about fun, and control. Then others will continue to gamble, and destroy their finances. Nobody will blame the blackjack dealer, but the individual will still suffer the consequences. Let's face it folks, this is a vice industry as well. And for the vast majority, it's something like gambling, or having a drink. It's even referred to as a hobby because it involves an activity that is not a necessity but something fun. Most people can start, and stop when they want. I will say this, I think the idea of having no strings attached with beautiful women to be as addictive as gambling and drinking. So this gentleman may have a problem with sex addiction. Joining Cerb may have provoked it, and it may have been like opening pandora's box for him. How do we act towards alcoholics or gambling addicts? Do we shun them, or do we encourge them to get help? I don't believe SP's are to blame, just as a bartender or blackjack dealer is to blame. I do believe that as a service provider, just as a bartender or anyone else in the Vice field we have a moral obligation to steer someone we see that is having issues in another direction if we are aware of a problem. I wouldn't take what he says about Cerb or the industry personally, at this point he is feeling sorry for himself, and his loss. It's time that he gets the help he needs and move on.

At the risk of sounding rude, I have to agree with Sara. There are bad things in life, and good things in life. Yes we can look at life that simply, and place blame on everything and everyone around us for our problems. Or we can look at it this way: There are things in life. Situations, people, etc. They are bad, good, neither, both. But until we make a decision to react or let it effect us, it is meaningless. The only thing that controls your life and the things in it is YOU and the way you perceive them. Being a John or Hooker can have it's good and bad, of course. But even bad situations can be learned from and made into something good. I think in your case, you were in a bad situation with your wife, came here, decided to fool around, and in exchange, paid less attention to your home life. But in the same way, you could have picked another hobby, say ice fishing? In the end, it's not necessarily where you were or what you were doing, But What You Weren't Doing. Taking Care Of Your Family. That's not this sites fault, that's not any SP/MP's fault, that's not the computers fault, or the internets fault. It's Yours. It's a shame you didn't take anything good from this place. In the end, life is what you make it. This place has brought me lots of happiness, information, friends, experiences. I'm thankful for this place, and this life that I choose.

I have to agree with this... If something as harmless as joining a website 'ruined' your marriage, it was already riddled with problems. Seeing prostitutes (typically) does not devastate families, even if they end up finding out. Money problems, violence, drugs and general resentment are usually what kill marriages. (At least as far as I can tell...lol) But, in all seriousness, if a marriage CAN be saved, I believe it can be saved at almost any time-- if not it might not have been worth saving to all involved. When someone leaves someone because they cheated, it's usually because there are other problems present... cheating becomes the straw, a good reason not to deal with bigger problems within a relationship. I'm not offended by your post, but I find it kind of pointless... If you're having problems in your marriage, leaving Cerb and hugging your wife aren't going to solve it.. I suggest people in this situation seek actual help, otherwise the same problems will just resurface and head you down a similar or worse path. Good luck!

If I'm not nervous or no butterflies, call the paramedics...I'm dead or close to it And the butterflies, nervousness, excitement, it's all part of the fun of an encounter, whether meeting a lady for the first time, or seeing a lady you like for a second, third, fourth or more times etc etc etc RG

The first thing I thought of when I saw this thread was this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qv343ai0EfA The second thing I thought was, you guys aren't the only ones who get shy. ;) Call it shyness, performance anxiety, or stage fright- all of a sudden you find yourself faced with this other dynamic, real, and very 3D human being- things were easy on paper (on screen, over the phone), but this is rather different. Will we click? Is my sense of humour too wacky? Is my timing all wrong? I have these thoughts too! But that's what I find exciting. Left alone with an unknown variable, what kind of fun can we dream up? You mention 'form'. But is there not something quite exciting about the formlessness and novelty of a new relationship? (And it is a relationship.) What will they say next? What shall I respond? To me, form implies predictability. You're hoping for a certain standard of 'performance', I gather. But is it really so terrible if you don't meet those expectations? It provides the opportunity to come up with something new. Chemistry will always be unknown before the first meeting. All we can do is give it our best effort and hope our partner will be able to meet us where we're at. Sometimes it may take a few attempts before we really get into a groove that gets us both going. This is a natural process. Shyness is just uncertainty. And I think uncertainty can hold a lot of promise.

Eagerly awaiting news of Michelle's return :)

I feel so much compassion for those who have shared their stories in this thread. So many of these trials are difficult for me to imagine. But what I do understand is that we all struggle. Everyone knows pain. Everyone could tell a sad story. I think the act of sharing these is very powerful. My pain has been largely internally generated. One of the hardest but best things I ever did for myself was to admit that I was struggling with mental illness. You could call my particular demons depression and anxiety. I had to, and continue to have to reassure myself that this doesn't mean I'm weak or pathetic, and to fight the messages my brain is sending me- self destructive thoughts I no longer believe, but that I generate anyway. Fighting mental illness- like most other illnesses- is incredibly exhausting. It can feel like your brain is against you, when logic tells you one thing but your emotions are louder. It's hard but necessary work. Even now I hesitate to post this, but I'm telling myself that my story is important too. Partly it's the fear of stigma around mental illness. Many people do take it as a sign that you are broken or damaged somehow. But the silence and shame around this issue is part of what makes it so much harder for people experiencing mental illness to seek help. 1 in 5 Canadians will experience mental illness in their lifetime. That's not small potatoes. It's important for me understand that even though I sometimes go through bouts of feeling like hell, I'm still a complete person. Someone worth knowing, with fabulous insights and exuberance and love to share. This particular kind of trial doesn't define me. I am much more than my pain. I wanted to share this for the others on this board who have similar experiences. Because sometimes it's incredibly hard to move forward and face your pain when shame and fear of appearing weak confounds your already confounded brain. But mental illness doesn't make you weak, and the process of healing can make you understand how incredibly strong you really are. This thread humbles me. It reminds me of exactly how much moxie us humans can conjure when we need to. Much love and thanks to everyone who has shared- and to those who have not, as well.