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Moral of the story "do not try this at home" LOL RG

I had a rather deep conversation with a friend and it got me thinking about what really matters, what should matter and why. When we exchange opinions, comments and simple statements. Should a compliment matter, should I/we be flattered, should I/we feel bad when someone criticizes or condemns me/you, should any of us care when someone gives an opinion, should it affect us? I mean in the grand scheme of things, people dying of disease, with all the environmental issues at hand, crime, day to day issues, should any of us really put any credence into what's said about us. Perhaps actions are more important and defining? I mean if someone on cerb thinks I'm/or you are a wonderful cocksucker, sexy or "worth my/your rate", "worth seeing" should I/you care or be complimented or when I or you help a person up from a fall, perhaps out of a financial crisis, or do them a favor, shouldn't these things be more defining, matter more, or are they all irrelevant? Or should what we think of ourselves be the only thing that defines us, if anything at all. I guess I'm wondering how or when do you know if you I/he or she is a good person, bad person, worthy person and, who if anyone should determine that?

This was a long time coming for me - oddly enough, that's true in more than one way. I've always been a bdsm switch, and for those unfamiliar, it basically means someone who likes dominating, and being dominated. I've had a couple of bdsm experiences before, but would probably consider them lightweight sensual sessions. Just a couple of clueless kids fooling around, and having lots of fun in the process. But yesterday for the first time, I gave up control, and let someone call the shots and I'm so glad I did (Allison Elm). I would probably consider yesterday's session to be on the much lighter side, but it was a great introduction for me. All I had asked for was some restraints, sensory deprivation and a lot of teasing; during the session, a little bit of nipple play got introduced and was welcomed (calling it nipple torture just seems a bit extreme). So, I find myself on her bed, hands tied above my head, feet tied to the corners, blindfolded, and very much at her mercy. I felt vulnerable, exposed, and most importantly, desired. I know the last one can be a bit puzzling to some, but since I was unable to move, or pretty much do anything except lie there and look sexy :P, it was all her. None of it felt mechanical, like she was checking of some boxes, but completely random. Before the blindfold came on, I saw her with a mischievous grin. After I lost seeing privileges, my only useful sense was touch, and thus all attention went on that. She focused on different parts of my body, each seemed to entertain her in it's own unique way. It felt as she got bored with one part, she just helped herself to another, and the feeling of your body being used to please someone else as some sort of sex toy...well it may be wrong because of gender equality issues and all that, but who cares, it feels fucking amazing (sorry for the language). And then there were three rules: 1) Always say please and thank you 2) I would have to refer to her as "Miss Allison" 3) I'd have to ask permission to cum - But prior to starting, we didn't specifically say if that would happen or not, so if she never said yes, well I was tied up, so I couldn't really do anything about it Now the first rule was simple. I live by please and thank you. It's just politeness. The second rule was a bit of a fun challenge for me. To me, submitting to someone takes great confidence in my own self worth, and that's why I haven't done it since now. Given my own background, this was a tough one to chew. I think the first two times, I just mumbled it, but it gave me warm fuzzy feelings of doing something so taboo (to me at least). The third one we vaguely set it up in the initial emails, but I knew that she'd eventually say yes. During the scene, I wasn't too sure anymore. Had it gone longer, I might've been begging and willing to do anything for one. To get an idea of what it feels like, imagine the most beautiful woman you've ever seen, by whatever definition that may be. She performs a bit of a strip tease, at first you can handle her slow pace. Eventually, she ups the ante, rubbing you ever so gently. You just want to see more of her, touch her skin, kiss her lips, taste her. But before any of that, she makes you wait till the end of the performance, and it's a long performance. Your heart races, your excitement builds, sexual urges just builds to a level you've never felt before. Yeah, that was me, just that I was blind, and even if I wanted to help myself, I couldn't. I had to wait patiently, and hope that I'd be lucky enough that her answer would be yes at some point. She did bite my nipple hard when I asked her the first time, since I forgot to ask please (Within what we had set up). A painful punishment but it kept me in the moment, and made me appreciate the other sensations much more. And although I couldn't see her face at the time, I'm almost certain she was happy that I made that mistake. When she told me that I forgot to say 'please', she sounded gleeful. I don't know if I'll ever find out for sure, but I'm sticking with this version of events. I won't say how it ended, but I will say I left her place with a stupid smile. It's been a day and a half since, and I'm still thinking about it. The thing is, that with many of the dommes out there, I've found them a bit extreme for my tastes. I always feel that there is a lot of humiliation and degradation, and it felt mechanical. Not knocking those ladies, or their clients, it just wasn't what I was looking for. I was looking for, and found someone who didn't see this as a master/slave dynamic, but two adults having some kinky fun. I definitely want to try this again, perhaps with less limits. Push myself more and see how far I can go. And I did have a greater appreciation for those who sub/bottom. It takes great mental character. I'm more excited to dom whenever I get a chance again, I would actually be able to relate with the sub's experience. I would recommend people here to give it a shot (ladies and gentlemen). It isn't for everyone, but who knows, it might be for you! ----- A bit of a follow up. She told me she did in fact get excited when I messed up the "Always say please" rule :) ---- Toronto doesn't have a discussion thread for this sort of stuff, hence I posted here. It would be nice to have a sub section focused on different interests that people have instead of making it city specific. I'd like to learn more about stuff out there.

I love love love COF...being on my knees in front of a man, looking up and seeing his face as he finishes all over me... love it. I also have a mirror at the foot of the bed that makes this even more purrfect :D

I have had so much fun here with so many different Ladies, who have provided different services, I would not dare to give you a Top 5, 10 or 20! Look at my "friends", the visitors to my page, and send a pm if you wish and I can provide some commentary if you wish. Talk to the Ladies, there will be many sexy options for you! They won't bite....unless you ask them to!!! TheLiquor

Funny, but true. I did an outcall once to visit a man at the house he shared with his wife, while she was at work, and it was the most uncomfortable hour of my life. I will never do it again. I don't understand why men try this, and I think it is just asking for trouble. It's almost like sub-consciously they want to get caught. Maybe if she is out of town for the weekend or something, then there's a bit more leeway, but even then, a long blonde hair, the tiny corner of a condom wrapper, a lingering scent, or any number of things could be an easy giveaway. One can dig his own grave, but imagine the awkward and potentially dangerous situation the SP would be put in if wifey comes home early. As cautious as one is, why not just eliminate the possibility altogether and either rent a hotel room, or just do an incall. Playing it safe could also alleviate a lot of unnecessary stress for both parties too. :) To each their own, but in my own life, I try to stay as drama-free as possible and avoid situations when possible that have a high potential for being troublesome.

So we all know, we are what we eat! So here is an interesting challenge to put this theory to the test. I am using mango, because it is a fruit that I know I can eat everyday for a month. You can choose any sweet exotic fruit, pineapple, papaya, berries etc... WHY?? You ask, well tales say, if you eat these fruits everyday, your flower will taste yummy and sweet...this is also true for the male flowers, lol so I challenge to eat one of these ( prob best to stick to one variety of fruit) a day for one month and see if there is truth to the tale:) You could ask your BF, Hubby's, regular clients, regular SP's or GF and wives...then report back once a week with the results. WHEN YOU REPORT BACK....state: no change slight change sweeter noticeably sweeter tastes like the fruit I ate OMG delicious and fruity Best for ppl who regularly visit their fav SP...or ones with GF,BF, wives and hubby's. So that you can get an accurate result at the end of 30 days! Hope everyone tastes like mango's and pineapple soon! lol CHALLENGE STARTS JUNE 20-JULY20 GET MUNCHING! LOL

It's interesting to think about the nature of love and reflect on the "great loves" of our lives. I think that I have loved, in a true sense, 5 women. I have, of course, been infatuated with many and lusted after many more. Two of those relationships were the sort of incredibly volatile relatoinship that takes you to such pinnacles of joy, but also plummets you to such depths of unhappiness. My first great love was like this. It lasted 4 years, and those years were some of the best of my life, and some of the worst. Even today I love that woman. And if she showed up on my doorstep and said she wanted me, I might very well go with her (at least for the night). This relationship, I might add, took place over 25 years ago. My wife, by contrast, has always been a quiet and gentle sort of love. There has never been the ups and downs. We grew into our love, easily and gently. I don't think we've ever had a real fight or serious disagreement. Sometimes I think we don't because I just tend to defer and give in. But in retrospect, it really is because there are very few things that truly separate us. It is, perhaps, easy to think there is something missing in this sort of relationship, and sometimes perhaps there is, that it lacks the intensity or passion of great and epic love. As a result, perhaps we think too quickly that we should be seeking something else. We have such romanticized notions of love. That it must be this huge, totalizing thing; that it takes your breath away and leaves you dizzy with excitement and anticipation. Sometimes that is true, but that sort of love needs to settle, or ultimately it is unsustainable. Sometimes, it strikes me, it is necessary to rethink what we mean by love, to understand that it comes in many forms, and that even our ideals of "romantic love" can be highly variable. What works for one person, doesn't necessarily work for someone else. Of course, within that context, for clients ... seeing SPs requires us travelling the boundary between love, intimacy, desire, lust. Physical needs and emotional needs become intertwined. Dangerous terrain, particularly for those questioning their relationships or looking for something more or different than what they have. And of course, this describes the situation of many clients, although certainly not all. Good luck Empty83 ... travel carefully and travel well. Porthos

Some really wonderful, deeply intelligent people on this board. A real pleasure making your acquaintance. Cristycurves in another thread tonight asks how we know when we're dealing with good people, or how we know when we ourselves are deserving of that sort of definition. I think goodness is more easily seen when shown, then when described directly, and the discussion on this thread, by way of it's insight and sincerity around love and its joys and complications and difficulties, shines very brightly indeed. i hope it's offering you and others much hope and inspiration Empty83. I know for myself, seeing my own sensibilities mirrored here on this thread so well, helps to reinforce the strength of my own convictions.

Welcome to the board. Here are a few of my favorites, with full links to their recommendations and profiles. Hope this helps you out :) Peachy: I met this beautiful young girl a few years ago when she first started working, and till this day she still owns my heart. She is a consumate professional who is always ready, on time, and with impeccable hygiene. She makes you feel loved from the moment you walk in till the moment you walk out. I recall once she even came out on to the sidewalk to greet me! She keeps her body in tip top shape, and has a gorgeous girl next door look. She provides top knotch service, and always gives 110% to make you happy. She also has a wide variety of toys if you feel like getting adventurous lol. The whole time you are with her, you feel like she's your best friend, one that you can have sex and experiment with! If you are new to the hobby, I recommend you go see her to get off to a good start. I still have not met someone I liked better than her in Ottawa. Peachy's Review: http://www.cerb.ca/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=4309 Peachy's Website: http://peachyval.com/ Pink from Explore-her/Kinky_Kaylee/Victoria on BP: This girl is young, gorgeous, and has the best little spinner body I have seen. That bum is to die for! She is also one of the few SPs in Ottawa I know who offers CIM (for an added charge). She is not as classy or professional as some of the other established SPs, but she makes up for it with her looks and service. She is young, and acts her age lol. She used to advertise on here as Kinky_Kaylee, and then she worked with Explore-Her as Pink. And now, she advertises on BP as Victoria. Not sure why she changes her name, but I can vouch for her that she is legit. She reminds me of a hot girl that I'd see at the bar in the Market, but would never be able to approach lol. Her review: http://www.cerb.ca/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=81516&highlight=kaylee Her photo albums: http://www.cerb.ca/vbulletin/album.php?albumid=4495 http://www.cerb.ca/vbulletin/album.php?albumid=7097 Her page: Victoria on BP (You'll never forget the first time we met xo) Hiroko from Moonbay: Hands down my favorite Asian provider ever. She is a young, cute, and very respectful girl from Japan. However, the action starts fast and furious, and doesn't let up. This girl gets down and dirty with lots of dfk and cim. Also does rimming too if you're into that. The whole time you are with her, she makes you feel like you are her long lost lover, and she tries to make you happy as if her life depended on it. Her recommendation: http://www.cerb.ca/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=135683&highlight=hiroko Her ad: http://www.cerb.ca/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=138031&highlight=hiroko Anyways well those are my three favorite ladies in Ottawa. I am sure there are others if you take the time to read the recommendations. Welcome to the board, and happy hobbying!

It's even clearer if you flip it around and asked "Hey ladies, who is your worst client in Ottawa??" and then try to reassure guys by saying "no, no, it's okay... she's not saying who's THE worst, just HER worst."

One week ago today I was just getting out of the hospital from being quite ill and having pneumonia and a body full of infection. My business partner's good friend had died from pneumonia the day before. My very young son had Menangitis at the time and in a different hospital, very scary ! and my mother was in a different hospital still from heart issues and my dad was in Winnipeg for cancer tests. Today I am happy and healthy and working and living life, and my son just went to the lake about an hour ago with my mom and dad for a day or two :) For me this is a highlight and my family is once again very fortunate. My heart goes out to those Cerbies that weren't so fortunate as of late and you are all in indeed in my thoughts because family means everything !!

Walking past the front desk in a hotel is no big deal. Hotel staff see many people coming and going every day. A person walking by the front desk may be, for all they know, someone who registered and checked in when that staff member was off shift. For all they know the person may be going to a restaurant in the hotel. In fact for all they know, well reality being what it is, they don't even care and don't even notice. The only concern is if the elevators have key card access. Other than that there are no concerns. Ladies are in the business of being discrete and they won't draw attention to themselves, or to you, until you two are alone in the room that is RG

There's a lot of wisdom in what's been posted here already and I don't have much to add except to say that there is enormous grace and blessing to be found in our relationships with people who have known and loved us for a long, long time. We all want passion. We yearn for transcendence. We want to feel as young and vital and sexy when we're in our 80s as we did, or should have, in our 20s. If so much life didn't get in the way, maybe we would! Love is a complex glory. I think we have considerable responsibility for those we love and for those who love us, too. The personal vulnerability and openness that's part of such intimacy is enormous and doesn't come easily to anyone. I think it's harder to achieve it the older we are, in many ways. I agree with MightyPen about finding a good counsellor to help you sort out what you feel and think, what you need and what's possible. I also agree with Porthos: you should talk to your wife about how you feel. Maybe the counsellor can help you do it if it seems like too big a task to do without some support. I would advise Porthos to take his wife away somewhere lovely on vacation. A romantic time in a beautiful setting can be very healing for all of us. Maybe something like this would help you, too, Empty83. And even if sex isn't possible, because of illness or inability, I think that what most of us want is genuine, intimate connection with another person who truly knows us. Sex is one way to achieve it, but it's not the only way. Long talks, especially when we really focus on listening intently, finding ways to be overt about recognizing the other person and celebrate their contribution to our lives every day--things like that can help strengthen the bonds that have weakened between us. Everyone wants to be loved. Most of all, we generally want to be loved by someone who knows us very well and loves us anyway. And by all means, spend some time with one of us, or even several of us. We're not going to create problems in your life. But be very careful. Right now would be a very bad time to fall in love with the wrong woman, see? Be playful, be engaging, try out something new, but when the encounter is over, close the door on it and walk away. Wishing you much peace, Samantha

Sometimes I ponder whether a person can have a long lasting relationship with another human being that can span decades and still have the spark to it in terms of intimacy, and sex and everything else that goes with a long term relationship? I have travelled quite extensively, been in long relationships, been in love, lost loves and had my heart broken too many times to count. Yet, I haven't really seen the long lasting relationship that I felt was healthy and still vital. I think one has to remember that humans up until the 20th century didn't usually live past 35 or 40 years of age and marriages were not that long. Today, if you're lucky you can live up into your 80's and maybe beyond and could be married for half a century or more, but I don't know if humans are mentally equipped to be with one person that long? People change over time and usually a couple in my experience doesn't grow or change at the same rate and that is where problems can arise. How many of us have heard of a couple splitting up once the kids grew up and left home? How fun is it to be in a sex less or love less marriage as well? I don't have the answers for all of this, but I feel that if a person is in a relationship and their needs aren't being met and their partner doesn't want to work on the problems or issues then it is time to part ways as life can be too short. I have seen too many people unhappy who are sticking out a relationship because of what others will think of them and are just plain miserable. A person has to look out for themselves first because being miserable is a choice and a prison that nobody deserves to reside in.

This is a thread that resonates very much for me. In many ways, I share the same, or at least similar experiences of many that have posted here. My wife and I have been together for 25 years. She was the love of my life in many respects. We share similar interests, politics, passions. Our sex, at one time, was quite wonderful. A series of things ... stress, illness, back pain, children, exhaustion with life ... led us to drift apart from each other. We had great affection, but little passion. Sex was gone. It's been nearly 5 years since my wife and I made love, and probably 8 years since the time before that. This, of course, was what led me to escorts. A familar path ... strip clubs first, massage parlours, escorts. I sought intimacy, but not love. Sometimes, I felt I had fallen in love Sometimes I actually had. I've had affairs, some of those were meaningless encounters at a weekend conference, some were deeply loving that lasted a significant amount of time. I've been reflecting very seriously on what this means of late. I realize, that despite it all, i still love her best of all. To whatever extent you feel your life has become a "cage", don't look for escape from that cage elsewhere. There is, of course, nothing wrong with seeking out the company of service providers. Indeed, I think it is highly advisable. But don't think it will solve your problems. It will not. Look inward. You either need to escape and leave the cage, accept the situation, or fix it so that it doesn't feel like a cage anymore, but a home. Empty83, as hard as it is, you need to talk to your wife about this. I found it nearly impossible to talk to my wife about this. Why, I don't know. Surely it should be easy to speak to the person closest to you in the world about sex and intimacy. But for some reason we were unable. Ask you wife what her feelings are, if she still loves you and wants you. Today, after the kids left to school, I said to my wife that I loved her, and that I wanted to have sex with her, and it hurt me that we didn't. She said it hurt her that we didn't as well. And that she wanted it too. We both cried. Now we have to make it happen. If anyone has suggestions for low impact sex techniques for a woman with back pain I would be very interested in receiving them. We tend, in our lives and in our loves, to assume far too much. Dialogue is hard. Especially when you are busy, or think you already know the answers, or fear the answers. Empty83, you already think she doesn't want you. Better to ask and know for sure, then live with the doubts and insecurities that not asking creates. I don't regret the wonderful lovers/loves I've met and enjoyed through this hobby. They have enriched me tremendously. And I don't think if I hadn't hobbied that my wife and I wouldn't have drifted apart. But, if one can drift apart, one can drift together again as well. The tide doesn't just go out, it comes back in. As Jade has rightly said though, only you know what is right. I thought of leaving my wife many times. But there was always caring and affection. We were best friends, if not lovers. We had great kids, and a life that was both full and empty at the same time. We got busy, and focused on that to fill our time. That seemed enough. But recently I've realized just how fundamentally lonely and unhappy that made me. Thanks to someone else, a friend and former lover, who has had tremendous impact on me, I've realized that I couldn't go back to that loneliness. That I had to either leave, or make an attempt at fixing our home, to make it something other than a cage. To speak, rather than assuming, and see where things went. I'm glad I did. Some overly emotional ramblings on a monday that seems full of possibilities that I didn't think existed a short while ago. Porthos

You may want to be a bit more specific. Are you looking for a girl that offer pse service such as cof, cim,greek etc? Or the more "well-know" acronym for party girl?...if this is what you are looking for, you are not allowed to discuss it on Cerb.

I remember those awkward learning days...

The lawyers and engineering/IT guys all lied on the form. Lawyers didn't want to look bad and the engineers/IT guys wanted to get away from their bookish "computer geek" image and answer like they have a fun life LOL RG

The way this is written makes it sound that those that are on here don't have a great life. I wouldn't assume anything about ppl that leave the board. Many have been here on and off. This is a lady I saw numerous times and will always wish her the best.

I have met a lot of wonderful people some in person and others being cerb buddies...both whom I admire and like very much...I love how the cerb community is so positive and upbeat...and I like how I can be myself and express my feelings and be the naughty vixen I am lol xoxo kisses to all you sexy cerbies

Great idea Sophia! Emily J has info on her blog on what to eat & what not to eat!

Maybe in the grand scheme of things, in this huge thing called a universe, where we probably are alive for a nano microsecond a compliment doesn't matter. But and just my opinion, first and foremost we have to remember we are all people interacting with one another and how we treat one another in life does matter. A compliment, whether it is on how you dress, the advice you have given or so on provides both positive feedback and makes you feel good. Criticism, if done to help is good, if done to bash, bad. Example, telling a person going to a funeral that a red shirt and white slacks is inappropriate clothing to wear, that is positive criticism. Telling a person it is wrong to wear jeans and a t shirt for day to day wear because the criticiser believes in always wearing suit and tie, that is negative criticism. (sorry, best examples I could come up with). You use the example of (I'm paraphrasing) you are wonderful at giving a bj. On the surface it may seem you are complimented on providing a sexual service. And the man may not articulate it well or at all but at a deeper level, it can mean "you provided me with pleasure, happiness and an escape for a few hours" Maybe he is in a non intimate marriage, or single unattached. Now this doesn't apply for everyone I'll grant, but I'm sure for some gentlemen myself included, the intimacy you ladies provide does matter, and provides some pleasure and happiness in our lives. Yes people are dying of disease. But how their life was, when they were alive, that is what is important. Part of that is did they receive positive feedback/compliments and give positive feedback/compliments when alive or was their life just giving and receiving criticism. There is more to life than being alive. There is also living. And part of living is how we think and interact with others and others think and interact with us. If none of that matters, by extension then, and just my opinion, does the human race matter? And as the saying goes, no man (or woman) is an island. So yes, compliments and statements, they do matter Some convoluted long winded ramblings RG

COF....definitely COF! I'm a very visual and auditory person when it comes to sex. The lights have to be ON! And I have to see and hear everything that is happening! The only thing equally hot to COF in my book is hearing all the wonderfully wet, sloppy, sucking sounds leading up to it (but that's another thread entirely lol). Obviously I'm not about to complain if a lady surprises me with CIM (I'm getting my dick sucked after all.....who am I to complain at all?! :p ) But given a choice, providing that my partner is as into it as I am, there is nothing more satisfying for me then to see the result of her hard work splattered all over her beautiful, sexy face...and to see that she loves the feel of every single drop of it! A sight like that is the definition of "a work of art". Now....the EPITOME of hot is performing DATY on her directly following the COF (assuming that none of it is near her eyes). There is nothing hotter than looking up at her, seeing the building orgasm in her facial expressions, while my cum is still lingering there. :D mmmm.....brb.....gotta go....do chores...yeah that's it ;) Gotta love these kind of threads lol.

I don't have any tattoos....nor do I have any immediate plans on getting any. Personally though, when it comes to the ladies, I can take 'em or leave 'em (tattoos that is :p). I honestly don't have a preference one way or the other. In my eyes, a beautiful, intelligent, sexy woman is a beautiful, intelligent, sexy woman with or without tattoos. Heavily tattooed women like Cleo Catra, SaraMQ or Malika Fantasy would be no more attractive to me without tattoos....nor are they any less attractive to me for having them. A woman's appeal to me is her charm, her wit, her intelligence, her sexual prowess, and yes, her physical beauty. None of which can be hidden by tattoos if you ask me. But hey, every one is allowed to their personal opinions and preferences. If johnsvp prefers no tattoos/body alterations, that's his prerogative.

Heyy Gentlemens I wanted to let you know I will be visiting your city Today! Can't wait to play ;) xoxo's

It's such a cliche, but time does heal. But you need to will yourself as well. I was in love with a girl for longer than I should have. When I cut her off from my life, I wanted to run back, because even though I knew I wouldn't be happy, it was familiar. The first few months, I missed the good parts. I gained a lot of weight, lost a lot of confidence, and went inwards. I couldn't be in my own mind because I'd torture myself, so I did everything to distract myself. I had enough, and started to do things that made me feel better about myself. A year gone, I do think of her, but I don't have that sharp pain through my heart when I think of love lost. I smile at the good parts, and remember the bad parts as a reminder of what went wrong, and how to avoid it in the future. I cannot compare my situation with those who married their love, had children with them, and now facing an uncertain future without them. But despite my comparatively lower experience in matters of love and loss, I truly think that whoever you are, you have the ability to make yourself happy again. No matter how inconceivable it may look like today.

I am sorry to hear about your situation. I had a relationship with a lovely girl that was everything to me. She was bright, sexy, and the sweetest human being I have ever met. She took ill, and after a 8 month battle passed on from C.M.L. (chronic myelogenous leukemia). After 6-7 months she wouldn't let me visit her anymore in the hospital. I had to yahoo messenger/phone communicate with her. She didn't want me to remember her as a sickly pale balding woman, but as the vivacious girl who would hide on me and tackle me, prompting a hysterical playfight. I am still angry about her not allowing me to visit her. My duty as I see it, as her man, was to be by her side. This was many years ago, and I still miss her everyday. I often say "goodnight" to her as I climb into bed. I hope that's not too weird... I do not know what illness is interfering with your relationship. I hope I am not overstepping to say forgive her. Illness can really change a person, and it is against their will. You asked does it get better. Yes. The sharpness of the pain subsides somewhat, but you will never forget.... I wish you and your wife all the best and I hope you can be happy again.

Well sir, in the context of this forum and it's values, I think that my take is not all together wrong as we are discussing human beings and not food. When humans are involved there comes emotions. My only point was that cerb is supposed to be without judgement and I found the wording off putting and offered up a reasonable alternative. I am all for freedom of speech and am expressing my particular views :)

How about the straight forward approach "just a regular woman", its hot for regular & mature guys like me............

My dear, when asked who is the best (no matter the context), best has the ultimate meaning of BEST! Not one's best but THE best which can only be determined by ultimately comparing the lot. Would who was your favorite not be more in context with the cerb mantra? I am not posting this, or my last post, for disparaging reasons but to mainly point out that by the wording the op could be less negative to the ladies; who is your least favorite would be just as sad. If I were to post "who is your best client in ottawa" would there not be negative comments?

It's a rough situation and we all deal with it differently. The girl of my dreams, my best friend and ex fiancée had left me a week or two after I returned from Afghanistan. While I'm married now and living a completely different life. That pain is always carried with me. She was the love of my life and always will be the woman I wanted to marry. In my opinion. If she's the love of your life. Hold on dear to it, because life without it, just isn't as awesome. Once she's gone. You might regret it for the rest of your life. Maybe seek different ways to cope. SP's and maybe couples counselling. Just my 2 cents!

Kisses from my pug and snuggles from my kitties

There was a song in the 70's... and the chorus had one line that resonates: "the hardest part of love is letting go." Thirteen years ago I was at the point in my life when I had to make that decision. I loved the ex... and part of me still does in different ways, but with the benefit of hindsight I can see that she was doing to me and what I was doing to myself. We each lost who we were when we started the relationship and had become strangers living together. What we had left was the comfort of our possessions and the uneasy sense of belonging to a "couple" regardless of how distant we had become. I made the decision that I was not satisfied like that... and after discussing the status of our relationship and the need to improve it, she decided that she didn't want to try anymore. Of course at the time I was oblivious to the fact that she was in another "secret" relationship... so I left. It hurt like hell. It felt like I had thrown away years of my life and that I was never going to feel part of anything that unique ever again. Then it happened. I discovered "me" again... and dammit, I like "me." I discovered that I had buried "me" so that I could be part of "us"... and frankly,by the end of the relationship, "us" sucked. That was 13 years ago. I have been nearly married 3 times since... but in the end, I am a happier man than I have ever been in the past. My kids love "me." I love "me." My friends love "me." You only have one go at life my friend. No need to live it in misery. Be strong. Make smart choices. Most important, decide to live your life happy and as yourself. It won't come easy, but then again, nothing in life that is worth having does come easy. Be strong!

Apparently this is Jessie's 2nd visit to Saint John, I missed her visit. I found her ad on BP and her pics are real and accurate. Jessie is very voluptuous and is all natural. Her incall location is a very nice Hotel in downtown Saint John. Jessie besides being very attractive is very down to earth and easy going, I was at ease as soon as I entered her room. I won't go in to details but Jessie is open-minded, I enjoyed our time together and I hope to see her on her next visit. Jessie has been a member of CERB for some time and told me she is going to take some time to familiarize herself with the site so she can start advertising here soon.

Congrats! Way to go!

Finding $200 in one of my notebooks I hadn't used for a long time!

Hank Snow I've Been Everywhere http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W47c6w46Cgc RG

Hello fellow cerbites.. I have a challenge for all of you (men and women). I am trying to coin a new term for women who are neither spinners nor bbw. I cannot identify myself as a spinner because I am too tall and I am not voluptuous enough to be a bbw. If there is already a term for this in-between body type, please let me know... If not, let's have a fun time thinking of a clever way of describing this kind of figure. I think we should stay away from words like hourglass or curvy since I have seen spinners with curvy bottoms and large breasts and I can say the same for bbw. I suppose this is a challenge for anyone with marketing skills (not me). I hope my post doesn't offend anyone, I'm just looking for a cute way to describe myself in my ads.

My first great blowjob made me forget my first great love.

I try to avoid body descriptors because things like "curvaceous" mean different things to different people. Just post accurate photos and entice them that way!

Congratz!! ;-)

Like a few others said, I'd suggest talking to her. Seems you really care for her and don't want to lose her. So the only problem is sex? Talking will help know what she's thinking and if there's no sex because of a misunderstanding, because she doesn't want it or because she can't. If she can't but you both love and take care of each others, she might give you permission to seek sex elsewhere. It's the case for 1-2 cerbies from what I've read. Goodluck and I wish you the best. @porthos: I'm no expert, specialy for a women's point of view....but wouldn't your SO being on top and taking the lead help? If she's doing the pounding, she could control it and make sure it doesn't hurt her back. Of course, there's also oral sex and other non-intercourse acts, but you probably already though of that.

Depends on why gym you go to. Honestly, As someone who trains people all the time. Most people don't understand a lot of toning is through clean eating. I go to several gyms and people ask me all the time to train them. What people don't realize is Goodlife and YMCA have classes that go with your membership and are free! I've done all of them and they are fantastic classes for all fitness levels. You should consider them instead of shelling out big bucks for guys and girls who are "Certified Trainers". Consider consulting a nutritionist and or. Figure athletes who have a lot of experience in dieting and training. :)

Justine, I feel ya! I am by no means a spinner nor a bbw. Kinda 50's pinup ala Marilyn Munro. Curvaceous perhaps?

You could only ever determine the "best" if you actually visited every lady that advertises in the ottawa forum. It should read who has been your favorite :). Not to sound contrary but this thread could be construed as a bit mean :)

I would say Peachy is my favorite ottawa sp. :)

Treat yourself well today, you deserve it! :-) Happy Birthday!

I had to remove a thread tonight and I am very upset that people are posting crap like this. Some idiot PM'd one of the members claiming that one of the local girls has aids. The member posted this along with other nonsense. Why he felt it was necessary to start a thread like this I will never know but I am done with people trying to slander other peoples reputations. If your too stupid to realize a PM or POST like this is just slanderous and made by either a jealous competitor, ex-boyfriend or drunken idiot trying to cause a problems then let me help you out by telling you first hand that you should just delete the PM and report the user name to me so we can get rid of the trolls! If you feel the need to accuse someone of such a thing publicly do it elsewhere as I don't care to slander anyone on this site and as long as I am moderator of this site I will NOT tolerate it from anyone else here! I will shut down the board before I allow that to happen so if you enjoy the site please respect this policy and rule.